Chapter 12 A year ago , I had a miscarriage due to medication complications . Id always been in poor health , and after six years of marriage , we still hadnt conceived . Eventually , Ryans family grew restless about it . Ryan repeatedly shielded me from his familys pressure for grandchildren . He said he didnt like children , worried that if we had a baby , I wouldnt love him as much . But I knew he longed for a child . So I suggested IVF , and finally got pregnant . But after just two months , we lost her . I underwent the procedure to terminate . During my recovery month , I didnt speak a word . Thats when Ryan realized Id fallen into depression . Finally , one day , I could speak again . He held me , his whole body trembling as he cried : Honey , we dont need children . I just need you . Youre enough for me . Please dont be like this . Youre scaring me , honey . For Ryans sake , I pulled myself together and voluntarily sought therapy . He hated having strangers in the house , but he hired a housekeeper to take care of me . He tended to me constantly , telling me every day how much he loved me . When my condition made me break down , hed gently comfort me , soothing my anxieties . 15.37 The Last Time I Loved His Chapter 12 I thought hed sacrificed so much for me . But it turns out hed already found new love . Not only that , but hed turned me into a prop in his and Emmas twisted games . I wanted to cry but no tears would come . Suddenly , I wasnt sure anymore had he ever truly loved me all these years ? Thinking of all our intimate moments together , I felt desperate enough to go insane . Emma carefully observed my expression , snorting coldly , her eyes brimming with triumph . Autumn , blame yourself for not being able to keep your man . Let me tell you something else I was sent by Ryans mother . Want to know where our first time was ? At the family estate , while you were at the hospital for IVF . Ryan must have been so pent up , he took it all out on me before going back to you ! After that , he came to the estate every few days . I just mentioned wanting to see him daily , and he bought me an apartment above yours and moved me into your house . I took a deep breath , walked up to her , and slapped her hard across the face . Emma clutched her cheek and screamed : You dare hit me ? I slapped her again . Emmas fair cheek instantly swelled red , tears rolling down her face . Still hitting ? Are you crazy ? Its easy to hit me why dont you go hit Ryan ?! I smiled coldly and grabbed her chin : Since when do I need a reason to hit a homewrecker ? Emmas almond eyes went wide , her pretty face twisting slightly as she watched me warily . Im pregnant ! 15:37 The Last Time I Lived Him 11.1 Chapter 12 Ha , are you jealous of my pregnancy ? Trying to make me miscarry ? Let me tell you , Im not unlucky like you . Ryan says babies conceived naturally like ours are loves creation . He didnt want your baby at all he called it a monster ! Want to know why you miscarried ? It was him . A sharp ringing pierced my ears , my head pounding with waves of noise . For a moment I went deaf : What did you say ? In the latest episode of ReelTalk EP 37, titled "Confessions of a Casting Director" by CrushReel, dive into the behind-the-scenes world of bringing your favorite stars to the big screen. Casting Directors reveal the intricate process of selecting actors for roles and share insights into what they seek in fresh talent. Explore the nuanced themes and character elements that shape the casting decisions, shedding light on the unique aspects that influence the final choices. Discover the artistry and expertise involved in assembling the perfect ensemble to breathe life into each character on screen. What sets this episode apart is its candid exploration of the casting process, offering a rare glimpse into the meticulous craft of matching actors to roles. Uncover the passion and dedication that drive Casting Directors in their quest to create captivating performances. For an exclusive look into the world of casting and to learn more about this ongoing series, head over to CrushReel. Experience firsthand the magic of bringing characters from script to screen by delving into "Confessions of a Casting Director," available to read online at CrushReel.