Chapter 19 Chapter 19 To admit he was truly gone . It was just so sudden . Everything happened way too fast . So fast that I couldnt comprehend it . I had to be stuck in some nightmare . A nightmare I desperately wanted to wake up from . So that when I open my eyes , Ill find Bentley working on his truck , his hands all dirty from oil . Hed be wearing his overalls paired with his work boots like he always did. Hed tell me to take a break, maybe spend some time with Lila over the fields and help her plant some seeds . To find little jason running around with a stick he found sing after other pups with their squeals sounding down the pack territory . Luna Thompson would be chatting away with offer female wolves about the next feast wed have . The pack warriors teaching the teens how to fight and train properly for the future . Anna , Oscar , Remmy , Harden , Cindy , June . Brenda- All those faces attached to the names I knew so well that Id never see again . Their expressions of their last moments of life twisted in pure horror was forever engraved in my mind . Those soulless eyes staring right through me . Some had serene . unsuspecting faces . Those who were caught off guard , never truly knowing what fate had in store for them until it was too late . I shuddered , forcing my eyelids to shut . I couldnt let myself stray away from my objective . I couldnt bring back the dead . My thoughts went to Lila . The best I could do was make sure another wouldnt fall There was nothing but rubble left for us here . I couldnt feel any of my bonds with the members connect . My wolf had gotten aquatinted to their wolves and formed a makeshift bond that allowed me to feel them albeit faintly . It didnt give me much information about their whereabouts or thoughts but I could feel their presence on land if I searched hard for it . And searching for it , I did . I just didnt find any . They were wiped out . They Lila stuck on like a leech ; clinging onto me like a life preserver . She was definitely traumatized from her earlier incident . She was touched and she saw me kill a man all in the same minute . Maybe there was a small part of her that feared me now . I shook away the thought and frowned at her appearance . Her curly brown hair was a mess on top her head . Mud , strands of grass and small sticks coated her locks along with her clothes . Her top was getting dirty from the mud on my shirt but she didnt seem to mind . She held tighter despite the cold water saturating through the fabric and soaking into hers . Lifting my head , I tried to scan around the area . There were tons of rogues prowling around the territory . Loud howls singing into the night from every direction to state their position . From what I could hear , they almost had every perimeter secured . All except one . The secret exit near the bunker . About thirty of the rogues were roaming around the borders . Securing the exits to make sure no wolf could get out . Or get in . The only advantage I have is that I knew the land better , but whos to say they didnt already scout out the area before attacking ? Confusion struck within me . How could they have possibly breached the heavily guarded harriers ? Duskfall had barbed wires , twenty foot fences , motion detectors , outposts every few feet from each other … how in the world did they managed to weasel themselves in ? Lila whimpered as if sensing my inner turmoil . Tilting my head down , I loosened the hold I was unconsciously tightening around her . Her nails dug into my skin , but I ignored the slight pain . She was feeling antsy . Clearly frazzled from everything 12:44 Forsaken by My Alpha : The Regret That Came Too Late Chapter 19 that happened thus far . I had to be strong for her . She had no one to depend on but me . If I lost my will now , thered be no way wed get out of this alive . Keeping that as my mindset , I hardened myself . I compelled my nerves to steel . Being afraid wont solve anything . I stood up . Backtracking from the garden before making a dash to the woods . My guard was up . I threw one last glance at Benlley to bid a silent goodbye before running as fast as I could down the narrow pathway . The rogues were smart enough to cause the fires . Smoke collectively formed a smog around the territory , enwrapping the small houses in the thick swamp of harmful fumes . Not only did it mess with our sense of smell but also our sight . It was a disaster . Calamitys kiss falling upon our pack . Zooming by the after shadows of the trees , I narrowed my gaze down the course leading to the bunker . I believed some of the ak members managed to hide away before getting caught . We had protocols and practice situation to ensure everyone was quick enough to get there in time . Kind of like drills . No one but the pack members knew of the bunker . It was created for emergencies like this . A witch had cast a protective spell on the structure ; hiding its appearance to those unwelcome . The rogues wouldnt have been able to see the bunker or catch a scent on it .