Chapter 18 I whipped my head around desperately in every direction . I didnt know where to begin to look . Then I heard a scream . A little girls scream . Lilas scream . blood ran cold . Pushing myself harder , I rushed over to the sound , begging the Moon Goddess to give the strength to shift . The sluggish sound of my feet pouling down on the mud ringing in my ears when I saw a figure hunching over the ground . A man built up with heavy pounds of muscles pinned Lila on the ground . Tears rolled down her eyes as she screamed hysterically . Her legs kicking and arms trying to pull from the mans grasp . Her pants were thrown to the side , shirt ridding up her exposed chest . Her underwear was still on but the man was quickly trying to change that . Without thinking , I rushed over and threw myself over the mans body . He fell over , my arms still wrapped tightly around his neck . Lilas screams were unceasing as she crawled away and stared at me . She cried out my name , then Bentleys before repeating in a cycle . The man was strong . He recklessly thrashed around , his hands planting firmly around my forearms in attempt to pull me off I tightened my hold , forcing every ounce of power in me to keep my arms locked around him . I shut my eyes in pure rage . The ideas I knew the man had if I hadnt interfered spiked up enough emotion in me to grasp tighter . An aggravated yell tore from my lips as the mans fruitless attempts of getting me off ceased . After a few seconds , his breathing slowed . His body drooping to the ground with his head hanging loosely at his neck . I felt his heart stop . I killed a maIL I killed someone . Slowly , I let my arms unwrap around his neck . His body fell over with a loud thud to give me a good view of his scarred hack . I kneeled over the floor , the body a few inches from mine faced down onto the grass . The adrenaline pumping in my veins had ne momentarily in shock when I felt small arms wrap around my waist . Lilas broken whimpers against my skin took me out of my trance . Cautiously , I wrapped my arms around her body and held her close . Her warmth the only thing keeping me from losing my mind . My touch soothed her slightly as hers did for me . I swallowed . Picking myself up with Lila in my arms . I walked over the body , not sparing another glance in both disgust of the man and disgust in myself for enjoying the feel of his life leaving his body in my arms . My wolf growled in approval , her canines baring in pride . The desire for blood was clear in her beady black eyes . We needed t I to get out of h here . Forcing myself to think straight , I suddenly remembered Bentley . He was supposed to be with Lila . I looked around only to find him missing . Panic spread inside me . He couldnt be Turning to the opposite direction , I ran with Lila still sobbing in my arms toward his garden . Leaves and branches slapped against my skin as I ran but I could barely feel it . I was too focused and engrossed in trying to find him to notice the small cuts spreading across my skin . When we reached the front gate . I looked around wildly . I was desperate to catch sight of the one person who showed me what a true father was like . His flower patches were still the same . It was completely untouched . I snuggled Lila tighter against my chest . Her face buried in my shirt as I felt myself freeze . I whimpered , legs shaking as my legs gave away . Falling to the ground on my knees , I held Lilas head to my neck so she couldnt look back . Her wet drops of tears rolling down my skin . I stared in complete silence . His checkered shirt was rippęd Chapter in open at the back . His body faced down with his head hidden in the cluster of his dandelions . His arms and legs were spread apart , his right forearm missing . A sharp sob pulled from my lips but I forced it down with my other hand . Hot tears blurred my vision but it wasnt enough to wash away the image in my head . Bentleys body surrounded and hidden by the flowers he so carefully nurtured embraced him . As if protecting him from the world . The moonlights soft shine casting a shadow over his body . And his precious white roses , tainted in deep red . Selly ? W Wheres Bentley ? la tried pulling from my grasp in impatience but I didnt let her move away . Goddess knows what awful thing will scar her mories of him . My eyes never strayed away from Bentleys back . It was like any second from now he would just sit up , wipe the dirt off his clothes and say hes fine . It didnt feel like I lost him even when the evidence was right in front of me . I couldnt feel him breathing but somehow a small part of me still believed hed wake . That small , delusional , helplessly hopeful part of me . I couldnt find myself to t find myself to admit it .