Chapter 17 Vivian's POV Get 5 > = Menu I don't realize I'm crying until I step into my room . The tears have been running down my face for who knows how long , and I suddenly remember Alder's words . Had he been lying , or did he truly not understand Alpha Orion at all ? Celibacy , my ass . I wish I weren't a virgin . After what I just saw , I would've gone on a fucking spree if I could . The only thing that restrains me is the fear of giving myself to just anyone . Still , I decide that the next time I see Alpha Thorne , I'm going to accept his offer . I won't hesitate . " Where are you ? " Alpha Orion's invasive voice intrudes into my head , sharp and commanding . I ignore him . I am furious , and I figure that's exactly why he booted me out of his room earlier . Clearly , I wasn't good enough for him . The woman he kissed is older , prettier , and undeniably more experienced . It's no wonder he was drawn to her . EE 1 " Open the door , Viv , or I will break it down again , " he snaps through the link . I hesitate , then grudgingly move toward the door - not because I want to face him , but because I don't want him smashing the lock into pieces . " You don't strike me as a one - minute man , Alpha . Are you sure she was satisfied before you left ? I'd hate to be the one to ruin your fun , " I tease , venom lacing my tone . " Why did you come looking for me ? " he asks , like he hasn't just been caught in flagrante . I scowl at his hypocrisy . None of this is my business , but I refuse to swallow my irritation . " I wanted to go to the diner , " I respond curtly . He shakes his head , disapproving . " Have a date with Thorne ? " he asks , his voice dangerously calm . I smirk to myself , daring him . " Yes , of course . You don't expect to monopolize all the fun around here , do you ? " I shoot back . His fists clench , the rage radiating from him like heat . " So, is someone taking me ? " I ask casually , feeling his tension spike . I decide not to say anything further , letting the silence hang between us . " You seem to forget you are a married woman , " he warns , stepping closer . " I doubt that because ... " I begin , but he cuts me off , silencing me . " I have a certificate that proves it , " he says , moving deliberately closer . I step back until my back meets the wall , every inch between us vanishing . " Stay the fuck away from me , Alpha , " I say , voice trembling slightly with anger . 14:36 7.17 % < Chapter 17 Get 5 > Menu " No. I won't . You're going to tell me what you want with Thorne , " he insists , his calm demeanor dangerously laced with fire . " Well , I wasn't going to tell you , " I begin , " but since you asked , I might as well speak . That near - death experience in your unsafe woods gave me a revelation . I refuse to die a virgin . So , naturally , I need to choose someone . Thorne seems like the best candidate - he likes me , and I don't intend to waste this chance . " He laughs , a low , humorless sound that makes my skin crawl . " Once he screws you , he'll be on to the next one , " he says , dismissive . " I don't think so , " I fire back , voice sharper . " That's exactly what you told me the last time about being on heat . You had me believing Thorne liked me because I was in heat - but I wasn't . You fucked with my mind and made me think I was . " He studies me , expression unreadable . " Thorne changes women like clothes . You'd be a fool to do that to yourself , " he warns , tone low and dangerous . " Well , that's my decision , isn't it ? Besides , I'm not allowed to fall in love anyway , so no hearts will be broken , " I say defiantly . He growls , and instinctively , I growl back . Without warning , he shoves me onto the bed and pins me with his weight . " Enough ! " he shouts . " I will not allow you to disrespect me . " I struggle against him , but he crashes his lips onto mine before I can push him away . I shove him back and wipe my mouth furiously . " How dare you kiss me after what I just saw , " I yell , anger and humiliation burning through me . He stands there , momentarily speechless , then lifts me effortlessly onto his shoulder . I squeak in surprise as we pass through the hall . People stop , staring . Some laugh , some gape in amazement , but I don't care . He locks the door behind us , tossing me onto the bed . His shirt disappears as he leans over me . The scent of him fills my senses , intoxicating , and despite myself , I begin to melt . He kisses me again , and this time , I can't push him off . My body betrays me , muscles clenching , core soaking in response . Sensing my shift , he moves to my neck . " Let us not do this , " I plead , voice soft but trembling . My words contradict the moans that escape me . He strips my blouse , breathing in my scent , and releases my breasts from my bra , cupping them . The sudden rush of pleasure shoots straight to my head . " Ahhh , " I moan , a mix of pain , surprise , and arousal . " Stop , " I murmur , though I allow him access . His hands wander beneath my skirt , rubbing my clit through my wet pants , teasing , igniting flames that I can't extinguish . 14.36 7.04 % < Chapter 17 Get 5 Menu He pauses to inhale me deeply , then continues . I realize I am too weak to resist , too consumed by anticipation to deny him . " Do you want me to eat you ? " he asks softly , eyes locking with mine . I can't answer , trembling uncontrollably , heart hammering . " I will stop if you don't say it , " he insists , piercing through my hesitation . I meet his gaze , eyes wide , tears threatening to spill . " I want you to be my first . I want you to make love to me like you mean it , " I admit , voice quivering . He responds immediately , pressing a heated kiss to my lips , pulling down my pants and skirt . His eyes roam over my bare skin , devouring me before lowering to claim me entirely . Imo " Ahhh ... " I moan loudly , giving into the torrent of desire that has built over weeks . Every want , every longing , every suppressed need erupts at once . I have no strength left to resist , no willpower to contain the craving . I just hope I survive this storm of sensation . " Ahhh ... " I cry again , overwhelmed by the pressure and ecstasy , clinging to him , crying his name . " Are you sure you want this ? " he asks , voice low and probing , eyes dark . I glance at him , fully aware of his readiness . " We can stop now . I won't be angry , Viv , " he assures me , but my mind is made up . " Be my first , " I whisper , trembling . He places his finger inside me gently , and I feel the sting of disappointment - I had wanted him fully , not just teasingly . " I can't take you like this , " he murmurs , looking deep into my eyes . I nod , feigning acceptance , though sadness churns deep inside me . He begins pumping slowly , never fully entering , never breaking me open . It feels exquisite , but it's not enough . Tears slip down my cheeks . " Viv , are you alright ? " he asks , pausing . I sit up , burying my face in my palms , unable to stop weeping . " Why don't you want to be my first ? You know I want it , yet you refuse . What about you repulses me so much ? " I demand , voice shaking . He stands , pulling on his pants . " If I were to make love to you , Viv , it wouldn't be like this , " he says quietly , and I stare at him , incredulous . " Yes , Viv . When you give yourself to someone , it should be because you are in love with them , not simply because you're terrified of dying a virgin , " he states , matter - of - factly , and I flare in anger . " Really ? Then what am I supposed to do ? I will never be loved . I will never fall in love . You've said it yourself - I'm just your insurance policy . You demanded my celibacy . You smashed my phone and kicked me out of your room because another man dared send me messages . So when the hell is it @ 114 : 36 7.17 % < Chapter 17 Get 5 > Menu supposed to happen for me ? When I'm old and grey ? Or whenever you feel generous enough to let me go ? " I sob , letting the full weight of my frustration , hurt , and anger pour out . # 314.36 Title: Crown of Vengeance In "Crown of Vengeance" by CrushReel, delve into a gripping tale of betrayal and redemption. Unravel the intricate web of deceit as a woman's life is shattered by family secrets and a tragic twist of fate. Amid themes of revenge, family dynamics, and dark revelations, this ongoing drama unfolds within the walls of a mysterious mansion where past wrongs resurface to haunt the present. 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