Chapter 25 An hour later, I pace my room, my stomach roiling as I wish I could rewind time and stop myself from snooping. I was stupid to think I could handle the truth about what Sergei does. It's so much worse than I could have imagined. In minutes, the man I thought I was falling for, the one I'd pictured spending the rest of my life with, feels like a stranger. Article after article crowds my screen, each one about the Volkov Bratva. Nothing is truly concrete; the entire enterprise operates behind smoke and mirrors. Articles trace the organization back to the eighties, when Sergei's father still ran the show. The phone's glow pierces my dark bedroom when I finally stop pacing and sit on the bed. I don't turn the lamp on. The darkness somehow makes it feel safer, like I'm less likely to be caught. If Sergei stops by, he'll think I crashed early after that explosive moment in his office. The mere thought of his touch makes my stomach heave, and I lurch to the bathroom to vomit. I let him lure me in with sweet talk and mind-blowing sex. And then I let him bring me here with the promise of money and what seemed like a genuine concern for his mother. I'm such a fucking idiot. Once I'm empty, I force myself into the shower, scrubbing every inch of skin as though I can wash him away. The water scalds me, almost suffocating, yet I can't stop. My hands shake as I scour myself until I'm almost raw, images from the articles I read swimming in front of my eyes. One article in the Times claims the Volkov Bratva is one of New York's oldest and most powerful Russian crime syndicates. Beneath the construction and shipping fronts lie allegations of drug smuggling, racketeering, black-market weapons trafficking, even murder. Murder. Another article details a warehouse shooting last year, chalked up to a turf war between the Volkovs and a rival syndicate. The photos show warehouse walls splattered with blood. There were no witnesses. Or, at least, there were no witnesses who were willing to come forward. When I can't take the heat of the shower anymore, I get out and wrap a fluffy towel around my body. I crawl back into bed and tug the covers tight before fishing out my phone and scrolling again. I'm equally desperate for more information and terrified of what other stones I'll turn over. I come across a short YouTube documentary about the Volkov Bratva. The account has no profile picture, and the video barely has any views. It was only posted a week ago. The caption reads, "For my safety, I'm not revealing my identity. The Volkov family keeps having this video taken down, but the people of New York deserve the truth." An AI voice narrates over sepia-toned photos from the nineteenth century, charting the Volkovs' rise. The family is old, and they've kept the city in their grip almost since the day they arrived. The video outlines their rise to power and the present state of the organization, naming its pakhan, or boss: Sergei Volkov. At the name, I leap from the bed and retch again. Sergei's not just part of this. He's in charge of it. All the crime, all the blood-he runs it all. This can't be happening. I've been living in his house, sleeping in his bed, letting him fuck me senseless. He begged me to come here; he seduced me; he made himself indispensable. All the while, he's been lying to me. And I fell for it. God, I fell so hard. I rub my eyes and try to breathe, but panic clogs my throat. Did he find me at the hospital by accident, or did he track me down? Will he kill me if he finds out that I know? I think about the gunshots at the café earlier. It could be just a coincidence, but what if that had something to do with him? I remember seeing Sasha outside the café weeks ago with men who looked like they'd stepped out of the 1950s. What are the chances that any of this is a coincidence? My hands tremble as I wrap my arms around my stomach, shielding the life growing inside me. Suddenly I'm not just afraid of the man I fell for; I'm terrified for my child. How can I possibly bring a baby into a world this violent? What the hell do I do? How do I build a future with someone who kills people for a living? Even monsters can be charming. Especially the smart ones. Some part of me, some deeply buried instinct, knew he wasn't just a successful businessman. There were signs. I ignored them. I let myself believe that I didn't need to know what he did for work, as long as he kept me and the baby safe. The baby he still doesn't know about. For the first time, I breathe a sigh of relief that I never told him. It's the one thing I can still hold sacred. This baby deserves more than to be the child of a crime lord. I don't sleep. I don't think I could if I tried. My body is exhausted and my eyes burn, but every time I close them, all I see are the headlines. The screenshots. The faces of men who've disappeared. Bloodied crime scenes. Anonymous videos talking about "consequences" and "retribution." I stand in the middle of my room, arms wrapped tightly around my waist. I stare at the door, half expecting it to burst open, Sergei striding in to drag me back to his bed. The thought of it makes me feel even sicker. I can't let him touch me again until I have answers. But truthfully, I don't know if even that would be enough. The chasm is too wide now, and the image of him is completely shattered. He never comes. The house remains still and quiet. Every time I look at my phone, I'm shocked by how little time has passed. I keep expecting hours to have gone by, only to find it's been mere minutes. I finally get up and get dressed, but that doesn't feel like enough. I can't stay here anymore. I don't care how warm the sheets are, or how fluffy the towels are. I can't think about how safe I once felt falling asleep in his arms. That was all a lie. A carefully constructed illusion built on manipulation and omission. He let me fall for him knowing he'd buried bodies. That the same hands that held my face so gently had probably held a gun to someone else's. And while he didn't technically lie about running a shipping business, he didn't mention that it was just a front for much more illicit activities. He played me. How could I be so stupid? I turn to the bed and stare at the tangle of sheets I just abandoned. How many times did I fall asleep in his arms, convinced our life was perfectly normal? Nothing about any of this is normal. Tears sting my eyes, but I blink them back because I won't let myself cry over him. I can't. I need to stay clear-headed for my baby. If I don't get out now, if I don't leave this house as soon as I possibly can, I never will. I glance at the small suitcase I brought when I first moved in. It's still sitting at the bottom of my closet. I drop to my knees and pull it out, tossing it open and immediately filling it with everything I can grab. Then I wonder, can I even go back to my apartment? He knows where I live. He probably has people who can trace my car and my debit-card transactions. I'll need to get cash, and fast. Then I'll need to ditch my car somewhere. I don't have a plan, but I'm good on my feet. Maybe Mia knows someone a few states away who'll take me in. Maybe I'll disappear entirely. But I can't stay here, not another second. My throat tightens as I think about Liliya. For the first time all night, I hesitate. I don't know how much she does or doesn't know, but I have to assume she's aware. Maybe she wanted to tell me and she couldn't. Maybe she's just as much a victim of a man's choices as I am. I can't leave without saying goodbye to her. Quietly, I grab a hoodie and zip it over my tank top. I slip into a pair of sneakers and make my way down the hall, keeping my footsteps light. The lights are off, the corridor washed in moonlight. When I get to her bedroom, I crack the door open just enough to let the soft hum of her white noise machine drift out. I peek inside. She's fast asleep, looking utterly peaceful. She doesn't look as frail as she did when I first arrived. She really is getting better. I hesitate again. Every instinct in me wants to walk over and tell her goodbye. I want to thank her for everything she's done for me, for being so kind and welcoming. I whisper it from the doorway instead. "Thank you," I murmur. "For everything." She shifts slightly, sighing in her sleep, but doesn't wake. I swallow the lump in my throat and back away, careful not to let the door creak as I pull it closed behind me. Then I'm moving. I slip swiftly, silently, down the main hall, carrying my suitcase by the handle so the wheels don't betray me. I cut through the kitchen and head straight for the garage. In the massive garage, my car keys dangle on a hook beside dozens of others. I snatch them down and heave my suitcase into the trunk. I quickly disable the alarm like Sergei showed me how to only a week ago in case I needed to get out. I open the garage door, praying the sound doesn't wake anyone. Hopefully, if it does, I'll be long gone by the time they get up to check. I get in the car and turn the key in the ignition, but I don't turn on the headlights just yet. I ease the car out of the garage and onto the road, glancing back at the mansion one last time in the rearview mirror. The house is dark. Still asleep. And just like that, I'm gone. I don't look back again; instead, I wind through back roads toward the highway. Then I realize I can't go back to the city. I decide to head upstate for a few days while I figure out my next move. Sometime tomorrow I'll get cash and ditch the car, but for tonight I just need to get somewhere safe. I turn onto a narrow back road, desperate to put as much distance between me and the mansion as possible. The SUVs come out of nowhere, sleek and black, headlights off. I don't even see them until one cuts me off at the next intersection, tires squealing, while the other pulls up fast behind me and blocks my exit. Panic explodes in my chest. No. No, no, no. I slam my foot on the brake and try to reverse, but there's nowhere to go. I'm boxed in. Trapped. My fingers scramble to lock the doors, to grab my phone, but before I can so much as dial, a figure steps out from the lead SUV. I scream and fumble for the door, but it's too late. The window shatters with a loud crack, sending shards across my lap. A hand grabs me, rough and gloved, yanking me out of the car and into the cold night air. I fight back, kicking and screaming, but no one hears me. The last thing I see before the world goes dark is the red taillight of my car still blinking in the street. 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