24 Chapter 24 not if I can help it I told her just before I felt Ethan grab my arm " Lily wait " he said and I turned cautiously , ignoring the tingles on my arm . he looked hesitantly at me before reaching to his jacket and pulling out a piece of paper . " Look I - I know I'm not your favorite person right now " he said in an almost pained voice , he avoided meeting my eyes and just looked at the ground " And believe me I'm going to work on changing that " determination was so clear in his voice that I bit my lip nervously " But for now just take this " he handed me the paper " It's my phone number Lily . I know you'll probably never use it but … jut in case you - you need something . Anything Lily , you call me right away . I don't care what time it is I'll be there in a flash . " " Ethan I don't kno- " " Lily please it'll keep me sane " he looked up at me , his eyes pleading . Why the sudden interest ? I had no idea . 20:34 THEM 1/6 24 Chapter 24 " Okay I guess " I said taking the paper from him . Ethan nodded and turned around , I bit my lip feeling like I had to say something . But I didn't . I just went to my room and looked at the number in my hand and saved it on my phone . Okay so that wasn't how I have been treating Ethan since we came . But just like he said , that was the first time we were that close and in the end he was my mate , the chemistry would always be there . I needed a change of place so I decided to go to my parent's house for dinner . My mom always knew how to cook the best meals and I kind of missed her cooking . I quietly walked down the stairs to go to my bike and drove to my parent's house . I parked my bike and took off my helmet . My brows furrowed as I noticed my old bedroom's lights were on . I knocked on the door and it immediately opened to reveal my mom . " Lily " she said happily hugging me " Come in honey " I 20:34 2/6 24 Chapter 24 got in and hugged my dad as well . " I thought I'd come have dinner with you guys It's been a while since I've tasted your food mom " I told her smiling warmly . My mom grinned at me " That's perfect and with Keith here as well we can have dinner just like we used to " she said happily " Wait Keith is here ? " I asked " Yes he's in your room " Something flashed in her eyes for a second before she excused herself to go check on dinner . What was Keith doing in my room ? " I think I'm going to go to my room a bit " I said getting up , my father just nodded trying to be nonchalant but it didn't really work well . I went up the stairs and quietly went to my room . I opened the door slowly and saw Keith sitting on my bed with his back to me . " Mom I said I'll be down in a minute I have to go back to the pack house anyway it's getting late " Keith said " Keith ? " I whispered and I saw as he stiffened . I walked up to him and sat beside him 20:34 3/6 24 Chapter 24 Keith didn't look up he kept his eyes on a picture he had in front of him . It was a picture of us when we were young . I was still a blond and a bit fat and he was as handsome as ever . " This is the only picture I could find with you in it " he stated in a low voice " I couldn't believe it at first . " " I wasn't a fan of pictures " I shrugged and tried to catch a glimpse of his face but I couldn't get a good look it was too dark . But I could tell he was thinner . " Yeah I know . Because of us " he said with disgust . I didn't say anything . What could I say ? I couldn't think of anything " You have every right to hate me Lily . Hell I hate myself , I've been hating myself ever since you left . Ever since … ever since I realized what an asshole I'd been " He looked at me then and I was surprised to see tears streaming down his face . It broke my heart . Keith , my strong big brother who didn't take shit from anyone , looked so … vulnerable " I - I'm sorry ….. I'm so sorry . I don't expect you to forgive me Lily. I was stupid . I just wanted to be a 20.34 4/6 < 24 Chapter 24 s - strong wolf , a g - good b - beta . I was so..stupid . T - two years Lily " he took my hands in his and I just stared at him in shock . " For two … two years my life has been a wreck . Be - because I … I knew it was …. my fault … my fault th - that my sister . My s - sweet , innocent , little sister , had to … had to run away to be h - happy " he closed his eyes " th - that I wasn't there for you it killed me Lily . It kills me " Tears kept flowing down his face as he took a shaky breath " I know I have no right to ask you to forgive me so I … I won't . I won't put you in that situation but god- " he choked on his breath and tried to talk again " God … I'm so so sorry . I don't deserve to … to be your …. brother Lily . I …. I'm trash . No brother does th - this . No brother tr - treats his sister the..the way I treated you . I … " he closed his eyes tightly " I'll never forget . Every … every thing I said I … I won't Lily . Never . You could scream at me , yell at me , hit me and it would be just a small price to pay for what I put you through for so … so long Lily " 20.34 -