Chapter 47 If Only Things Hadn't Gone So Wrong Finished Wade's memories slowly came back , piece by piece . He let out a bitter little laugh , almost mocking himself . " Wade , I was so , so scared for you- " Kyla's voice cracked , and she started sobbing . " I thought something awful would happen to you . Please don't ever do this again , don't ever scare me like that , okay ? " Her tears poured like rivers , her lips trembling as she squeezed Wade's hand tight , biting her lower lip . She looked so pitiful , so fragile - it was the kind of sight that could break anyone's heart . " I'm sorry , Kyla . I won't do it again ." Seeing his little sister worry about him like that , Wade forced a smile , but his eyes slid away , hiding what he couldn't say out loud . Because now , whenever he looked at Kyla , he couldn't stop thinking of Tilda . Tilda - beaten by his own hands , broken , bleeding inside and out . Her tears , her loneliness , her hopeless face . He realized how badly he had treated her back then . He had sided with Kyla and crushed Tilda without mercy , treating her like nothing . Now Wade finally understood : After everything , he couldn't just ignore Tilda anymore . He couldn't just laugh and joke with Kyla like before , not with guilt eating away at him . The cruelty , the torment he'd thrown on Tilda - they were thorns stuck deep in his chest . Even if he tried to look away , every little thing reminded him , stabbing that wound again and again . He hated what a disgusting jerk he was . He who had done unforgivable things to his own sister , who had been missing for 19 years . Kyla frowned slightly . Something about Wade feels off , but I can't figure out why . Maybe he's just still weak after fainting . " Wade ," Russell suddenly said , his tone sharp . " I know you just woke up and you're still recovering , but tell me - what exactly did Tilda do to you that made you collapse ? " If I can get solid proof against her , I swear I'll make Tilda pay . I wanna wipe that smug grin she threw at me in the cafeteria right off her face . Howard gave a cold snort at her name , saying nothing . He still remembered Tilda's mocking words in the cafeteria , the way she had rejected his so - called kindness . The memory stung like acid , filling him with anger . Yes Only Kyla deserves to be my real sister . Only Kyla , who's obedient , respectful , and never defiant . Not Tilda , who always challenges me and makes me furious . I can't wait for Tilda to fail , to regret not grabbing the hand I once offered . Honey Blair cut in , voice sharp as she shot Russell a glare . " Wade just woke up , and you're already interrogating him ? What's the point ? " 1/3 Chapter 47 If Only Things Hadn't Gone So Wrong Deep down , Blair had started leaning toward Tilda's side . Finished Maybe it was guilt . Maybe it was the memory of that fancy restaurant , when she had lashed out at Tilda with cruel words , not even giving her a chance to explain . She still hadn't apologized for it . But if Tilda had really clashed with Wade , she knew Russell would come after her with everything he had . Kyla bowed her head , her fingers clutching Wade's hand . What she wanted most was for Wade to say it - to say Tilda had done this to him . Then Russell would explode in fury and rip Tilda apart . And that would also solve Kyla's biggest problem - her rival . The girl who threatened her shine , who dared to take her place as the Jensons ' only daughter . Wade has always hated Tilda and wished she were gone . I'm sure he won't waste this golden chance to bury her once and for all . Especially after she had stolen his spotlight and taken away his glory . He must hate her for that . At least , that was what Kyla thought . But then Wade spoke , his voice calm and steady . " Dad , it wasn't like that . Maybe I've just been overworking myself on my research paper . That's probably why I fainted ." The room went silent , heavy and tense . That wasn't the answer anyone expected . They all thought Wade would blame Tilda , say she had pushed him to collapse . But instead ... he blamed himself ? " Th - that's it ? Wade , are you saying you and Tilda didn't fight at all ? " Kyla blurted out , unable to stop herself . She couldn't believe or accept it . Why would Wade waste such a perfect chance to crush Tilda ? Doesn't he hate her the most ? " I didn't fight with Tilda , Kyla . Don't make up stories . " The truth was , right now , all Wade felt toward Tilda was guilt and self - loathing . And , deep down , something else too - respect . Because Wade had always admired anyone better than him . And Tilda was better . That respect lit a fire in him , a will to keep going , to push harder , to stay strong , If only things hadn't gone so wrong - if we hadn't been driven into such hatred - maybe Tilda and I could've been good friends . We'd be fellow dreamers , learning from each other and growing together . Kight then , a voice rang out , breaking the silence . " While you were unconscious , your dad heard this might have something to do with Tilda , so he went to find her .. "