Chapter 3 apter 8 At my office, I hears a newcomer saying she is preparing for the qualification certificate related to our job, which makes me Books Chapters Are Daily Updated Join & Stay Updated for All Books Updates… feel ashamed. Even the young girls know they should seize the time to improve their abilities but looking at myself, I am still muddling along without an aim day by day. I have to blame myself for giving my relationship with Alexander a top priority. Upon graduation, I had been dreaming of marrying Alexander. Until now, my dream hasn’t come true. In the past, the most important thing for me to do was revolve around Alexander. I had even been thinking, if Alexander asked me to quit my job and be a housewife, I would say yes right away. I thought if I could get married to Alex and have kids with him, that meant the happiest life for me. Now I come to realize that I am a total loser. I had devoted my whole self to this relationship but I got no proper reply. He even was willing to give me a marriage. At work, I was in a mess, without any progress. The newcomer at our workplace inspires me a lot. Now I think it is time to make a change. I politely asks my colleague what practice materials should I buy and then start to prepare for the certificate. Every day off work, I will eat outside first and then dive into studying at home before sleeping. Probably Alex is still angry with me and he comes back very late every day. That is good news to me. I can have a quiet and comfortable environment to study at home. During the afternoon break, I play with my phone and then I find out Alex’s updates on his Instagram. There is merely a photo without any words. That photo is of a table on which there are several dishes and two sets of cutlery. There is a hand in the corner of the photo and I know it is Alexander’s for I recognize the watch I bought him. I knew Alexander too well. He must have deliberately posted this photo to tell me that we are having dinner together, which he thinks I will be angry about. The truth is, I’ve lost my feelings of anger and jealousy. I will never pick up my phone and call to question him in anger now. My eyes stay in that photo for just a second and then I keep playing with my phone. In the afternoon, I received a photo call from Alexander. ‘I will pick you up today,” his voice was calm without any emotions. My first reaction was to refuse. “Thanks. But I have to work overtime today. I might get off work late,” I lie unconsciously. “When will you get off work then?” he continues to ask. ‘Well, 8 pm. ” I have to keep my lie. I will wait for you in front of your building at 8,” he hangs up the phone quickly. Chapter 3 I can’t admit I was lying so I stay in my office and start to study with the materials I bought. When it is 8 pm, I pick up my bag and go downstairs. As soon as I take a step out of the building, I catch sight of a familiar car not far away. I walk over and Camilla who sits on the front passenger seat smiles broadly at me. Charlotte, I have just finished dinner with Alex and he is now driving me home,” she says. “I see,” I nod, then open the back door and get into the car. In the past, as long as Camilla was in this car, I had never sat on the front once. For this, I have argued with Alexander endless times but I can’t do anything about it since he was so obviously biased to Camilla. The reason he offered was that Camilla had carsickness. He criticized me for being narrow–minded but I told him the front seat should be exclusive to his girlfriend but he just sneered, saying I was unreasonable. I have never won Camilla once. Every time we are in the same car, I will experience depression. Fortunately now, I don’t care about this anymore. apter 4 Chapter