I watched my two favorite people speaking carnestly about things I couldn't comprehend . Frowning , I muttered : " Have I been alone too long ? " " Do they both have secrets from me now ? " Gary and Baby slowly walked out the door . " Gary even decorated the car with white roses . " Surprised , I suspected today must be special . I desperately wanted to check a calendar . As the car moved , I studied every person inside . My nerves tightened . The driver focused on the road , ignoring phones . The assistant held a basket of white petals , phone untouched . " Gary ... sitting stiff and formal ? " " Why's he nervous ? " Puzzled , I turned to Baby . Baby clutched a rabbit pillow , no phone in sight . " Even brought the rabbit pillow ? " " Since when does Baby look so serious ? " They moved with shared purpose . A pang of loneliness hit me - I felt excluded . Though truthfully , they meant no harm . The group arrived at my gravesite . 0.0 % Chapter 20 The driver retrieved white roses from the trunk . " Roses again ? " I never recalled favoring any particular flower . Baby led the way , followed by the assistant with the petal basket . Gary brought up the rear , flowers in hand . I drifted forward to my own grave . My tombstone was also dressed up . Covered in white gauze , adorned with white roses , with a bouquet placed right beneath the photo . I couldn't pretend not to understand any longer . " Gary he ... " Would he truly never regret it ? Yet I still struggled to believe the reality before me . " Gary , I'm dead . " My eyes reddened as I turned to look . The child and assistant were scattering petals . Gary approached me slowly , holding white roses . " Jessica , I ... I'm here . " Gary's voice trembled . He knelt on one knee before my grave , offering the flowers containing a letter . Then he drew a ring box from his coat , opening it beside the bouquet . Inside lay a pair of rings - one larger , one smaller . I examined them closely : our names engraved inside the bands . Gary slipped the larger ring onto his finger , then retrieved the letter from the flowers . " That's the letter he tucked in his diary for me . " 27.8 % 09:55 288 Volw I recognized the envelope . Gary carefully unfolded the stationery . Two pages - one freshly written . " Jessica , I love you . " " I watched you grow up , yet realized this far too late . " " Not until your wedding did I discover ... I'm the one who can't let go . " Gary read the newly penned words , his voice cracking with each syllable . " I missed your courage , missed your heart , even ... " " Even missed your life . " He paused , taking a deep breath . " It's me who's late , Jessica . " " But thankfully , I'm still fortunate enough to understand your feelings for me . " " Still fortunate enough to earn good boy's approval . " He exhaled solemnly . Accepting the lighter from his assistant , he set two letters aflame . " Jessica , I hope I can still earn your approval too . " The papers slowly burned to ashes with his words . I stood at a loss . My chest felt packed with emotions , all trembling on the verge of spilling out . Happiness ? Regret ? Had I truly gotten what I wished for ? " Is this moment with Gary still what I desire ? " 62.7 % Suddenly , my head spun with a familiar , throbbing ache . " Mommy , we're family . " It was good boy speaking . " He's good boy's daddy now , so he's family too . " Watching his earnest little face , I gradually calmed my nerves . 93.3 % It was when everything was almost over, that the billionaire told me that she found me looked familiar at first sight! Right after I got into a top college, my mom passed away because of severe illnes...