Chapter 10 % " I don't even have the right to say sorry to you now . " } He said he had gone to see the scientists and signed a life - threatening agreement . This time , the content of the bet was even crazier . As long as the scientists agreed to let him enter the instrument to search through the past , he was willing to give up his life in the end , even if it meant becoming a living experimental subject . " I heard about this from Cassian . } He even showed me the video . } Elias sat inside the instrument without hesitation and immediately turned on the switch . But the extreme overload caused him to vomit blood and his eyes turned blood red . } This time , he did not hesitate but clenched his teeth and endured it . The alarms blared continuously . The scientist , terrified that someone would die , tried to persuade him . " Are you insane ? If you keep going like this , you'll die ! Stop it right now ! " } But he refused . He said this was the only way he could atone for his sins . " I want my memory back … I want to remember . " } Overload after overload . He vomited blood again and again . But each time , he stood back up . Over and over again . By the time Clarissa rushed over , he was already on the verge of death . She cried bitterly , " Why are you torturing yourself like this ? Don't you realize this is more painful than killing me ? " > " I was the one who tampered with the data , but you still fell in love with me . Why are you trying so hard to get your memories back ? " " Even if you could go back in time , could you really make her fall in love with you again ? " } That final question hit him so hard that his expression froze . His eyes were filled with unbearable pain before he let out a scream and collapsed , unconscious . The scientists rushed him to the hospital and the doctor said that due to multiple exposures to the instrument , his internal organs had been severely damaged and were rapidly failing . Because of this , he might not survive more than half a year . But he responded with a calm face , " That's perfect . Then I'll only have to endure the pain of losing her for half a year . " } Clarissa wept bitterly , begging him not to give up , even threatening to end her own life . However , it was all in vain . He said numbly , " Do you think your tears still mean anything to me now ? " } " Go away . I don't want to see you again . " " But … " " Go away , go away ! " } He screamed in despair and as he shouted , he broke down into bitter sobs once more . He clutched the scientist's hand , begging to be given another chance . " I think I remember something . Please , just let me try one more time . " { " I want to remember . I really want to remember everything about her . " Now , he stood in front of me , telling me that he had remembered our past . How we took a walk under the stars together . } How he woke me in the middle of the night just to take me to see the sea . And when the sun rose , he proposed to me and said proudly , " This makes me the first person in the world to propose . " *** There was so much more . " Trust me , I can remember it . " He reached out desperately , trying to hold my hand , but when he saw the ring on my finger , he froze.§ I said , " You remembered … but I'm already married . " " " This time , you missed me . " } " Just like I missed you . " Perhaps I was wrong from the very beginning . Perhaps I should not have expected too much . Time kept moving forward . So why was I still stuck in the past ?? " Don't … don't do this ! " ! Choking back his tears , he said , " I'll remember . I'll remember everything soon . I'm still the same Elias Hawke who loved you back then . " > Oh , really ?? Chapter to anint did ha still halimun that an lann an hammamhaund the mant he would anmahau ha the SOF At this point , did he still believe that as long as he remembered the past , he would somehow be the same person again ? " What about everything you did to me ? " % A D Discover our latest featured short drama reel. Watch now and enjoy the story!