CHAPTER 15 "Oh, fuck..." Cedrick moaned. He was pushing, pulling on top of me, enjoying my great delicacy while me... I didn't. My chest still hurts and is heavy, I am still angry with him because of what happened last night... as well as earlier. I was laying on the bed, resting like a dumb human being because I couldn't really enjoy the thing Cedrick was doing to me. Sometimes, I can't even stop moaning, but I can stop the right response to his kisses. I don't know if he could have noticed it. Can he feel that the warmth he feels now is not complete? Because the truth is, I don't feel like having sex with him. He kissed my lips again but I didn't respond until he pulled away and stared at my face. "Are you rebelling against me?" He asked while pushing, pulling inside me. I trembled when we reached the peak of happiness. We both let out a moan. He left my room after finishing. I got up and my wound still hurt a little. It got even worse when Cedrick passed me by. He really doesn't care about me at all... He knows I was stabbed yesterday and now I'm recovering... He still really followed what he wanted, the hunger of his flesh. The only thing that matters to him is... He enjoys it. I showered and changed. My eyes are also getting hot and it's not good anymore so I thought of going downstairs to take medicine. I got rained on last night and I'm sure I'll catch a cold if it's not done early. I opened the drawers and still couldn't find anything until my stomach churned and I ran to the kitchen when I felt nauseous. I threw up everything I ate this morning so I washed my mouth. I even wiped the tears from my eyes because of the vomiting and sore throat. I took the glass of water and even before I drank it, I was stunned by the voice behind me. "Don't tell me you're pregnant." It was Cedrick's voice and I think he saw me throwing up. I shook my head as I felt dizzy and the warmth of myself. I drank water before answering him and faced him. "Don't worry. That will never happen. I don't want to have children with you either." I put the glass I used in the sink. I heard Cedrick laughed sarcastically and arrogantly. "Are you sure?" I didn't show any emotion to him. "Yes. I'm taking pills." my answer. If he's worried that he might get me pregnant, he doesn't need to. I was also careful. Why is he afraid? Is he afraid of me getting pregnant and Elise finding out? I don't believe that his love for that girl is complete. Because if he really loved her... He will never ever fuck another woman. "Nah. Not that. Are you sure you don't want to have a child with me? You might even do it on purpose. Think about it, you'll get attached to the wealth I have." My head was full of anger because of what he said. Final. He thinks of me as a girl who looks like money. But can I blame him? That was the image I had of him from the moment we met. I asked him for help, money, a house, and support for my studies. And my body is what he wanted in return. So I wrongly blame him for this. It's normal to reflect on him like this. "I can't imagine that the father of my child will be like you. And one more thing... I have no plans to have children either. You have nothing to worry, Sir. I don't want to inherit the life I have. You can breathe take it easy." I was about to pass him when I left the kitchen but he spoke again which stopped me and made me angry. "Good. You should be satisfied with what you got from me." He breathed and laughed sarcastically. "You're not aggrieved by this so don't complain. Aside from the food and shelter you provide, you also enjoy every time we have sex. Don't act like I was raping you whenever I lay you down the bed." After saying that, he left and entered his office in this mansion. I sat on the sofa and held my chest. It was as if I had been doused with very cold water and many blocks of ice. I was like standing on burning coals. It was like I was slapped a thousand times by what he said. Something is forming in my throat. I want to cry so much I want to scream. My head hurts so much. He added more. Never... you really don't care about my feelings Cedrick. None of your business. The next day, our professor didn't admit us to a subject. Nothing to do now and just sit in my chair, dumbfounded while thinking about what will happen next in my life. Everyone is noisy, others are not tired of being reprimanded because others are reading, studying. And me? I didn't know and I was still stupid. Maybe what happened yesterday and the past few days just had a bad effect on me. I bit my lower lip and bowed, this is how my life is. This is the weight I will carry. "You know... you've been lethargic." Trevor commented and pulled out a chair, positioning it in front of me so he could see me properly. "Are you okay?" He leaned down and stared at my face, his forehead was covered with a blanket, is he worried? I smiled at him and looked away. "I'm fine..." I answered him, I was about to look away but he grabbed my chin and made me face him. And after that, his face changed to more concern. "You're still very hot, Sherin." He was surprised and stood up to touch my neck and forehead. It's like a doctor taking care of a patient. "Your fever is high, Sherin. Get up. I will bring you to the clinic." He carefully held both of my shoulders. There is also a trace of worry in his eyes. I nodded and started to stand up. But when I stood up, I was holding my head, as if the things around me were moving. My world is spinning. Trevor rested on my shoulder. Keeping me from falling. "I think you can't be able to walk. Come on, I'll carry you." I immediately shook my head at what he said. "I don't want to. I can Trevor. Don't." I will catch up immediately. It's good that he didn't insist, he was walking with me and I told him I would go to the bathroom first so he was there outside the girls washroom, waiting for me. When I came out, a woman approached me, she was smiling. "Sister," "Hmm?" I raised one of my right eyebrows, letting her know that I was waiting for her next words. "Trevor is your boyfriend?" She asked and she pointed over her shoulder. He pointed to the door where Trevor was near. I couldn't understand myself and suddenly my chest beat faster. I immediately shook my head. "Uh, no. Trevor is not my boyfriend. We're just friends." I confess. That's true. They misinterpreted our connections. Recently, Trevor and I have been together a lot and we eat together. Sometimes we even happen to arrive at the same time at the university so we enter the classroom together. I also didn't notice that our blockmates as well as the students in other courses looked different every time they saw us. Am I really this close to Trevor for them to know we are in a relationship? Trevor is very kind, calm, and helpful. He has all the qualities I want in a man. So I can't deny that that's one of the reasons why I feel so relieved about him. And I don't even know why he is so happy with me. "She's not, girl! You still have chances." I went back to my senses when the woman spoke again. They left and entered the cubicle. I look at what they went through. Maybe his partner has an eye on Trevor. Trevor Cervantes was a good looking man. He is hot. He is pretty. He is sexy. He is good. He is kind. And it's not impossible to get more women who like him. In the past, when I stalked him, it was so evident that many girls were dying for him. God. If I don't prioritize anything right now... If I'm one of those women who have a good life... Have a family... Have my own house... And don't get dirty... Maybe I'll fall for him too, I'll also pay attention to him. Just doing these things, my heart is almost pounding. What if I'm ready to love, fall, and embrace a man who makes my heart beat and always makes me smile, laugh, and even make my eyes shine. When we arrived at the clinic, they gave me medicine. The nurse there was shocked when she touched me because I was so hot. I rested there for a while until he advised me to go home first and temporarily miss class to recover. He told me not to stress and not to think about the class even for just three or one week. I shook my head. I don't think I can take a Sunday off. That was too long for me and it was embarrassing for Cedrick. "Let's go? Can you walk? Can I just carry you?" Trevor said worriedly. He's still here by my side and won't leave. He was absent from one of our classes earlier because he was here. I scolded earlier but the man didn't really beat me. I wanted to push him back to the classroom but I didn't have the strength so I didn't. I just let him stay by my side. I held his arm. "Don't. I can do it." I smiled at him despite my spinning surroundings. "That's always your reason, huh." He is angry. "I can." my answer. "Just take care of me again." I said he followed him. Before the class was over, I was sent home. I have three more subjects but I should not go in yet. We got into Trevor's car to go to Cedrick's house, the mansion I was staying at. We arrived immediately, he got off first and he opened the door for me. He supports me, keeping me from falling. After getting settled, we walked to the door of the mansion together. His arms were carefully holding my shoulders while I was bent down, blowing my nose bridge and eyelids. "Who are you with here?" Trevor asked me, looking at the mansion. I sighed. "My cousin and Aling Marta." "Oh, just the three of you?" he asked again. "Yes," I almost whispered my words. "Is your cousin... Female or male?" Trevor asked again. "A Male." "Which of you is older?" "Him. My male cousin." I answered. We also immediately reached the door of the mansion, it was still open and inside I immediately saw Cedrick. He stood up quickly when he saw me and Trevor. Surprised and I know his face is mixed with anger now. She thinks again that I am here with this man, to flirt. "Um, good afternoon. You might be Sherin's cousin." Trevor. "His fever is very high and the administration sent him home first. Where is his room?" I breathed a sigh of relief when Trevor explained, he looked around inside. He probably wanted to be the one to take me but Cedrick walked towards me. He snatched me from Trevor's hands and put his arms behind my back. One of his hands is now on my shoulder. Just like I was in Trevor's arms earlier. "Nah, I can manage. You can leave." Cedrick said plainly. "Okay, sir." it was Trevor and before he left, he looked at me and smiled very sweetly. "Bye, Sherin... Get well, huh?" His voice is full of tenderness. I smiled and nodded. "Thank you... Take care..." "Ouch! Take care, huh?" I turned to another man who spoke teasingly to the side. When I saw him, his smiles were teasingly focused on Cedrick. It was Luther. He is here.