A few weeks ago after I ended up at the mall with Elise, Cedrick, and Luther. It's been a few days since I left the mansion. I haven't done anything else in the past except to answer the email that the University sends me rgarding the admission. Their last email to me said that school year will start next week. Next week is tomorrow because today is Sunday, Monday is tomorrow so tomorrow is the beginning. I smiled as I wrote, looking forward to the coming entrance. I tried to review and back topic so that when our professor asks about what was learned last school year... I can answer something. I don't want to look stupid in the classroom and look ignorant just because I didn't answer his question. I'm happy because finally... I'm going back to school. It's been my dream since then, to finish school and get a law degree. I told myself then that no matter how hard it is and no matter how long the year I spend, I will work hard because this is what I want, this is what I hope for, this is my dream so I don't feel tired. Cedrick had been supportive to me these days. Whenever there is a detail I don't know about the files that the university asks me to fill-up, he doesn't hesitate to help and answer me without rushing. So sometimes, I still don't lose hope that his heart will soften towards me. Cedrick will soften you too. That type of person is very kind, not just because he wants to bed me. I want to see him smile while talking to me. I also want something that smells good not only because it needs to fill the heat in its body. But... In the past, Elise kept going back and forth to the mansion. Sometimes he even sleeps here. I have to admit that I feel a pain in my chest every time I see them. They are so sweet every day. Aling Marta was also late. Elise is very beautiful, sexy, rich, above all, smart. Cedrick deserves it compared to me. Who am I, right? Besides the outlet of lust, what else? Cleaning because you dream of becoming a lawyer? It won't be white anymore because it's gone, just with Cedrick, I'm so dirty. I sighed and took my laptop. I pressed my eyes shut when I felt tears already boiling there. I shook my head and checked my email. When I saw there's one, I clicked on it and a message from someone I don't know greeted me. From: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Hi, Classmate! I saw your name on the master list and I got curious about you lol. Continue to be a future lawyer. See you tomorrow, Sherin :) I didn't even notice that I was smiling. I don't know, maybe I'm just like this because it feels new to me. It was as if my heart was throbbing due to an unknown reason. Maybe it was because I felt appreciated? I just received this message again after a year. As if he wants to see me. As if he is eager to meet and be with me. Well, if he will ask me, I feel the same way too. I was only more excited to go in because of his message. Appreciation is still a different feeling. It's like it's lifting me over soft clouds. I sat up to type a reply, still smiling. To: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Oh, hello! Nice to meet you. Honestly, I don't actually know you and I'm not curious about who you were. Haha, well, anyway, I'm excited to know you. See you too! I quickly hit the 'tap' button after I sent it. I'm still smiling and happy because finally today, I'm sure I'm not lonely tomorrow. Someone wants to be my buddy. Well, I also want a college buddy to help me with acads. That's not bad, is it? I leaned back to the chair and I faced the ceiling, pressing my eyelids using my fingers. Just a few moments later, I was thrown back from my leaning when I heard the ringing. It's an email from Trevor Cervantes again. He is quick to reply. From: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Oh! I didn't expect you to reply. You are Sherin Sarquez. So how shall I call you? One of my eyebrows automatically raised at what was read. He wants the easiest way to call me. It seems that he has a plan to get close to me. That's why I put my fingers on my laptop keyboard again to reply to him. To: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Call me Sherin. That's all I said. Save because I don't want to make it obvious to him that I'm glad I'm talking to him. Five seconds later he replied again. From: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Wait, can I have your socials? I mean, why are we texting here? We can be friends on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, or telegram. It's much easier there. I was stunned by his message . I stared at it while the smile slowly fell from my lips. Facebook? Instagram? Twitter? Telegram? Everyone... I'm not there. I swallowed because of the swelling in my chest. Will he think I'm too left behind if I tell him I don't have those? Since I suffered and went through the darkest part of my life, I deleted all my social media accounts. I had friends before, but ever since our house had been eaten by a wild fire... They left me so I don't believe they are my friends. Maybe we were friends when we had the same life status. But when you struggle? They will leave you because first... you are useless. I hope they attend various parties every night. Party there, party here. They were even there to find guys whom they could make out with. Because I don't want them to disappear from my life... I force myself to be with them even though I'm not used to attending night parties. I am not into loud noise and dim places. I hate crowded and different colors of lights because I get dizzy. Sometimes I also take them with me to look for guys so that our night is not boring. There is an incident because we are often together and they all have male partners, already sitting on men's thighs and I'm the only one who isn't there. Because of that I tried to fight my fear, I became over confident and approached the pleasures. Until I got used to doing night out parties and being hugged by a man while being kissed. From: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Sherin are you still there? And then I was brought back to my senses when Trevor's message popped up again on my laptop screen. I shook my head and sat up straight. I tucked my hair at the back of my ear and let out a heavy breath. I pressed my fingers through the keyboard. To: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Yes, sorry. I have no one. After I sent that, I took another deep breath. I don't know what to answer him when he asks why I don't have social media accounts other than email. Should I answer... It was for my peace of mind? Social media is so messy and dirty that I deleted all my accounts before? From: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Why not make one? I breathed a sigh of relief when he said that. He suggested me to create my own social media account. I just smiled. Is this really how he wants to talk to me quickly? Well, even me, I want too. I think we will be friends. And... I'm looking forward to that day. To: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com okay, sure! wait, I'll create one on Facebook App. From: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com good girl will be waiting. Tell me your account's name so I can add you. Don't worry, I won't eat you, I'm a good boy. I covered my mouth while laughing. Good boy, huh? I wonder what he meant on the words... 'I won't eat you' Really? I typed facebook.com on the search bar. It didn't take me too long because creating an account was easy. I went back to email to send Trevor my account name. I also took a selfie earlier on the side so that I have a display picture. It's funny, my first picture this year. To: trevor.cervantes@gmail.com Hey! Here is my handle. "Sherin Sarquez" After I sent it, I immediately received a friend request on Facebook. It seems that he is really waiting for my signal because he is very fast. He immediately messaged me but I didn't see it. You tried to cyberstalk him first so I could see his face, so I could know if he was trustworthy. "Oh my God." I was shaking my head as I stared at his picture. God. Really? How could you make a guy this perfect? Shit! I wonder why he stuck his interest in me! Very handsome. Like, tangina. Why is he talking to me? I analyzed his personality, just using this picture. He was inside a gym, of course, he was half naked there. He is holding the barbell in his right and left hand, so there are traces, oh no, not just traces because I can see the beauty of his body. Oh, God. The muscles. This is not favoritism but an honest opinion. Honestly, his body is better compared to Cedrick. His body was perfectly built! It looks like he is always at the gymnasium because his body is so perfect. I looked for other pictures of him to make sure it was him. And when I witnessed the others... I was sure he was. The account has only one face and too many pictures uploaded. He also has many reactors and I bet he was popular in their school. Maybe he was popular since high school? Of course, who wouldn't be famous when you have such good looks? Maybe all women are obsessed and lose their panties because of him. Maybe... it has many exes because it's pogi, popular, and most of all appealing. I snorted. What can it do to me? It looks like playball. If I make him an acad buddy, the girls who like him might be jealous of me. Or maybe... He has a girlfriend. So it's not good for me to stick with him. I can handle studying alone, e. And one more thing, maybe Cedrick can help me. My brows rose when his chat box popped up on my screen. I read his message to me. Trevor Cervantes: I thought your name was pretty, but you are too. I laughed even though it was corny. Bolero but really funny. I wasn't taken by his pick ups, so I immediately typed a reply. Me: I already know that. I laughed to myself until I realized what I was doing. I just laughed like this again. Where, my heart seems to be boiling with joy. It seems to be mixed with sheer joy. I woke up from my deep thoughts when Trevor replied again. Trevor Cervantes: love your confidence. But it's true, you're really beautiful. Me: yes. That was all I could think of to reply to him. I did the cyberstalking again. He is really famous and I can see from the comments that many women look up to him. So that I could be sure and keep myself out of trouble, I tried talking to him straight forward. Me: do you have a girlfriend? That's what I said. I'm just making sure because if there is, I will immediately stop the connection with him. I don't want to ruin the relationship. The soul is already too dirty because of Cedrick and Elise, shall I add more? Hell must be very happy now because I will be with him in the afterlife. Trevor Cervantes: nothing. why? will you apply? I laughed again when I read it. No! Did I say that and that's what he'll get. He misinterpreted it. "Sherin..." I jumped back in shock when I heard the muscular voice of the man behind me. I immediately felt nervous because I knew that he had been standing behind me for a while and I only noticed him now. And annoying! Why did I just notice him now? I swallowed before standing up and looking at him. I tried to cover my laptop with my body. Cedrick is afraid of the future. "Do you need something?" I heard every beat of my chest talking. A smirk slowly formed around his lips. I just got more nervous. It's not good anymore. "Nothing but I read something." There was an accusation in his voice. "That's just my blockmate." I said to him as I watched his hand slowly run down my thigh up my womanhood. "Why were you asking him if he had a girlfriend?" He cupped my pearl in his hand and pulled it upwards. I pressed my lips into a line because of the great sensation he gave. "It's not what you're thinking." When I explained, I was out of breath. He inserted his finger inside my panties and he started tapping my clit. I shut my eyes closed, feeling the pleasure made by his fingers. I immediately felt heat in the middle. Cedrick leaned closer to my ear to whisper something while playing with my precious pearl, as if that was his way to punish me. "As long as you are in my territory, you are not allowed to flirt with someone." His finger went in and out of my womanhood faster and faster as he uttered those words one by one. "Are we clear, Sherin?" I nodded. But it didn't seem like that was enough for him because he asked again, his finger moving faster. I let out a soft moan before answering him. I closed my eyes with pleasure. "Oh, yes. Y-Yes," I bit my lower lip. "I'm not flirting with him. Obviously, Cedrick..." I couldn't just avoid moaning as I muttered those words.