Chapter 8 Just then , out of nowhere , Caspian appeared . He was holding Riley bark , his movements soft and decisive , his eyes blazing with anger . He was putting himself in danger to protect me I quickly picked up the silver dagger that had fallen during the struggle , folding it away . Edidnt want that weapon to farm anyone else . After reporting the incident to the Black Rock Pack guard outpost , we handed her over to the kennel guards and left . They he Aken to the outpost to face punishment for their actions . 1 scoffed . Well , I guess youre happy now . Youll be reunited with your brother at the Arbitrators Council . No one can fear you apart there , youll finally be together . Back at the apartment . I noticed Caspians hand . It had a deep gash , likely from being unintentionally hit during the fight . He had risked getting hurt to protect me Hed been trying to hide the injury in his sleeve , as he said to me , You mustve been terrified , he said , his gentle voice trying to soothe my emotions . Lets eat . He was always putting my needs first . I walked towards him with a frown , and grabbed his arm , pulling up his sleeve to reveal the gruesome wound . My heart skipped a beat . Are you insane ? Why didnt you tell me you were injured ? My tone was a mix of anger and concern . I couldnt stand the thought of him being hurt . He instinctively pulled his hand away , forcing a smile . Its nothing , it just looks worse than it is . He didnt want me to worry , always putting my feelings first , even in pain . ) I didnt say a word . Silently , I grabbed the herbs and treated his wound . My heart ached . Once I was done , my expression was still grave , I couldnt control my emotions . As I stood to put the herbs back , he tugged at my sleeve . Are you coming back after you go downstairs ? His voice was laced with anxiety , his eyes filled with a wary vulnerability , afraid that I might leave him . Seeing him so insecure and tentative made my frustration evaporate . His kindness always disarmed me I sighed . What else would I do ? Can you eat all of this on your own ? I used a question to answer his, not wanting him to feel insecure . His face lit up , like a discarded pup being reclaimed by its owner . His smile was pure and gentle , and I had an overwhelming urge to hold him close . After wed finished eating , he started clearing away the dishes , and I stopped him . After some careful thought , I knew that I had to speak to him . I needed to face this growing feeling I opened his drink for him , and then , completely without warning . Do you have feelings for me ? to He choked on his drink , his eyes and face going red as he coughed . His reaction said it all ; he couldnt hide his here for me I suddenly realized that , without a single word , he had shown me he loved me . s 12:42 Fursaken by My Alpha : The Regret That Caine Toodate Chapter 8 Caspian . I said , trying to analyze his feelings using logic , Is it possible youre not actually in love with me ? Maybe youre just grateful that I helped you and youve developed a dependence on me , seeing me as your savior ? You keep to yourself too much . You should spend time with other werewolves ; maybe youll realize this isnt real love , its just you being dependent on me . I spoke to him as a professional , using my knowledge as a healer . Id said enough , and then I fled . I was afraid to face these feelings . I didnt want to get want to get hurt again . It was better to offer a clear rejection , because my wolf wouldnt be able to handle any ambiguity . For a long time , I avoided every request Caspian made to go on a date . I was running from these feelings , afraid to be hurt Again . Then , an opportunity came up for me to do a blood exchange program with another pack . I immediately applied . I needed to leave , to run from these feelings , to grow . I embarked on a worldwide journey to teach suicide intervention techniques . I needed to help other people , instead of being trapped in the past . I would occasionally post pictures of my travels on Wolfgram , displaying my life of freedom and contentment . Liam and Caspian were always the first to like them . They were still watching me , and they both hadnt given up . They were both waiting for me . When I finally returned to the territory two years later , Id changed a lot . Id grown , I was more mature and strong . The first familiar face I saw was Liams mother . Her face was lined with worry , a permanent furrow in between her eyebrows . She no longer held her former grace and arrogance The once beautiful , refined woman was now gaunt and worn , consumed by time and pain . I had never liked her . She had always been condescending , and every time wed met , shed tried to persuade me to leave Liam . She had always put herself first Her eyes filled with tears , Seraphina , I know our family wronged you , but now Im begging you … Her pride had completel gine . She was just a helpless mother wolf , seeking help for her child . Please , go and try to persuade Liam at Silver Moon Valley . He has bone rot disease and he wont listen to anyone else other than you . Her request was laced with desperation and despair . Shed given up her pride . All she wanted was her son to live . She rambled on for a whole afternoon , telling me about the decline of their family and how their lands had been ravaged by infighting . It turned out an illegitimate son had been revealed in the family . After the scandal with him and Riley had been revealed , control of their land had plummeted . Even when theyd tried to fix things , it had been too late . Their family was crumbling . The illegitimate son had used that opportunity to gain influence with the elders . And at that time , Liam hadnt cared about any of it , while Riley was scheming in secret . Shed agreed that if the son became leader , then shed get to be with Liam again . They were willing to do anything to get more power .