15 When I uttered those words , countless past moments involving Jax Ryder flashed before my eyes like fragmented film reels . At that party , I added him on SnapChat . But there was no further contact . Until that night , a feverish Jax Ryder , by some twist of fate , called me instead of the friend he intended to ask for medicine . I carried a bag of fever reducers and used a code to open his apartment door . His face was flushed with fever , and his mind was probably unclear . < Tue , 26 Aug After taking the medicine , his hot cheek pressed against my hand , rubbing back and forth . " I'm so hot , and so cold … " I looked down at him , asking quietly : " Then , should I hold you ? " Jax Ryder looked at me with hazy , watery eyes , curving his lips , his voice hoarse . " Sister , are you trying to take advantage of me ? " " Yes . " I said , " But you also have a chance to refuse me . " He didn't answer . He just reached out and pulled me , making me fall onto him . My hands and body were always cool . Perhaps finding it comfortable , he completely wrapped himself around closer and closer . me , pressing " Sister , aren't you uncomfortable wearing something so tight … ? " " Uncomfortable ." I cupped his face . " Then you help me unbutton it , good boy . " Even though it never reached the final step . But all the confusion and intertwining of our relationship began that night . I admit I was initially just looking for a thrill , never intending for it to last long with him . I wanted that moment of pleasure . 3 % 21:40 Tue , 26 Aug < And he was so skilled at this back - and - forth game , I initially thought his intentions were the same as mine . A sudden grip on my wrist snapped me back to reality . Jax Ryder , his face cold , clutched my wrist and strode forward , pulling me with him . A reporter tried to block him and ask another question , but he raised an eyebrow , looking at them with a half - smile : " I'm going back to the team with my boss to review the game and discuss next season's strategy . Do you all want to come and listen ? " The coldness and sharpness in his voice seemed almost impossible to suppress . The reporter still wouldn't give up , reaching out to try and block him : " Then the girlfriend you mentioned at the time- " Jax Ryder lost his patience and uttered a single word , expressionless . " Get lost . "