Chapter 41 , Chapter 41 I can see in her eyes it is killing her that she doesnt know though . I break , Ok . I let out a breathe , Come with me . I turn to go back to the field and she follows . When we get to the field and sit down on one of the bleachers , she looks at me and waits for me to talk . I stay quiet for a few moments to try and think of where to start . Ok … umm I … I see a therapist once a week because I have anxiety , depression , and suicidal thoughts . I say while looking out , so that I dont have to look at her . She gasps , but doesnt say anything . I was only recently diagnosed , but it has been happening for a while . After the car accident , I also suffer from PTSD and have nightmares , so I dont sleep very often . I take sleeping pills , so that I am able to fall asleep , but nothing helps with the nightmares . Tears are streaming down both our faces and I hear Kaseys breathe hitch . Sometimes … I have these times where … I f feel numb . Everything just doesnt matter . When this happens , I kind of spiral . She stays quiet . Thats what happened this time . I forgot to take my antidepressants for a few days , and it caused me to go into one of these … episodes I guess . So , I stayed in my room , alone so that I could make sure I didnt do anything stupid . What if … if you had left ? She asks quietly . I look over to her and see her crying , this makes more tears come down my face . I dont know . After Faking My Death My Alpha Husband Went Mad Chapter 47 . Sometimes I do something reckless like going 180 on an curved empty road and see what happens . Other times , I see how long I can hold my breathe under water and dont come up till I feel like Im drowning . It just depends . On what ? On how bad it gets . And how bad is your worst ? She asks hesitantly . My worst was when I … umm … I almost jumped off a bridge . Well , I did jump off the bridge , but someone pulled me back . I say to her . She lets out a sob . I hug her . We hold each other and cry for awhile . I feel better now that I told someone , but that doesnt mean it will be any easier . Then , she lets go , Lee , why didnt you tell anyone . We could have helped you . What if … what if we had lost you ? She asks . I know and Im sorry . I didnt want anyone to know . I t thought it would be better being back home , and it is . I stayed home because I had people to lose . I had you and Blake and Luca . I almost did it , I thought maybe you would be better off without me . I say wile crying . Lee , we w would never be better of w without you . She cries . Im sorry . What did you almost do ? She asks as tears come out of her eyes . I … I almost took some sleeping p pills . I say while quietly crying . She hugs me again , but harder this time . Like she afraid she will lose me . It makes me feel better . I know now that I needed to tell her because whenever I feel like nobody would care , I can remember this moment . Her pain is because of me and I hate that . I cant imagine what would happen if I actually did it . She is why I have to keep fighting even when it is easier to give up . 34.0 % Chapter 41 Damions POV : She didnt come to school yesterday , or today . Everything inside of me is telling me to go to her and make sure shes ok , but I think she needs space . I saw it in her eyes when she said she didnt need anyone . She scared to get close to anyone and shes pushing me away . Hopefully , if I give her the space she needs ,. she will come to me instead of me pushing and going to her . But , her not coming to school as me worried . I havent been able to concentrate on anything but Lee and its killing me . I am angry every second Im not with her , and I feel like I am going to explode . I had to leave school early yesterday so that I could shift . That never happens when shes around . I miss her laugh , her smell , even that stupid fake smile she always does . 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